One Step Further

I just finished half of the photoshop book, the happy case is now i know to use level, hue/saturation, selection tools. Its a good beginning, but i know that my time was not many left, another 3weeks from now i should in the university, sometime i really quite worry of it, it will decide my future, if i got my first choice, then i will go for my dreamed job, if not then i will go IT field. But in actually, i love IT more than math, but what to do, in reality money really so important, don't tell me ur ambitious, if u don't have money, u got nothing!! Yeah, i'm admit that i'm that kind of materialistic people. U all can look down on me, but the experience on me, u all won't undsderstand!! Be myself, live for myself, the new style i should be =)

As the time pass, i just know that i really poor of friend, everytime signed in to msn, can't be deny that my contact list have many online contact but the 'friend' at there never find me, and everytime i'm the one who aggressively go and say hi to them. Sometime i really i feel myself was failed in my life, i'm really don't have friend? Ya, i got those 'friend', in word call friend but in reality they didn't treat u as their friend, they will treat u invisible. Ya, in word they will act like so care for u, but in reality they just don't want to add another enemy in their life.

In my life, i had fall in love with quite a number of girl, others ppl maybe will treat me as playing around, but i could say that i use my heart to treat them. I would say sorry to them, cause their caring make me misunderstand, and make me fall in love with them, and i know that no one will love me, i also know that i'm that kind of people that so irritating. U think that so funny when fall in love with one people? When u know that that people that u love actually don't have any feeling to u u think the feeling very nice? Ya, i'm admit that i really hope to have a relationship cause i just want a people to care for me, love me, is that too over? I'm really get hurt enough, i really not dare to think bout it anymore, i given up, its my faith.

Beside that, maybe my expectation to a friend is too much, I will hope a friend that will always care for me, understand me, the reality is actually i don't even have a friend, i'm lone ranger, eat alone, hang out alone, shopping alone. Maybe i'm a kind of friend that not worth other ppl to care bout me, same point, they just don't want add another enemy in their life.

Anyway i would say thank you to all those 'friend', cause without u all, i won't be so independent and strong, i won't die because of lonely!! Its me, i prefer to be alone, but not to pretend!!

Don't know why i feel lonely 2day, i just feel myself was isolated, thats why i choose to be silent, its different feeling already, i tried so hard to pull our relation closer but i'm really tired of it, since u all treat me as nothing, why don't we pretend we never met each other before rite?

This is the last time i will present, not i mean to do that, but u all didn't appreciate.

Yesterday, there was a celebration for birthday of my sister and mother, since they are just few day different of date of birth. At the morning, we went to Midvalley to shoppping, and i was so lucky, the lucky draw from Wah Chan, i'm the one who got it, it was not a luxury thing but i show that i got the luck, hopefully it will help in my coming upu result.

Around 5pm, we depart from Midvalley to Puchong to the shabu shabu shop, its all u can eat, when u see those word, then u will eat 'die die', finally we all holding our stomach when we go home.

And at here i wish my mommy and my sis Happy Birthday!! I love u all!!

The day that i never forget, as usual went to work, on my pc and start photocopy those stuff. Don't know why just feel a bit weird cause that time i was still working, i will hope that time pass faster, but today i feel like wan the time to be slower, 5month at there dy, quite miss my place and seat.

Sharp at 5.15pm, i go meet my supervisor, she ask me to pass all my job to my colleague, after pass all my job, then she ask me go her place, then she call all people gather (my section) and give me the present that they prepared, that time really feel quite touch, i though they will do nothing and let me leave but i'm wrong, they bought me 2 T-shirt. The another 3 contract which is so close to me d, bought me a cake, that time i rili feel like don't want to leave, but i have to, to continue my study.

Thanks u all!! I will forever remember u all and I miss U all!!

This is how my weekend spent, saturday went Times Square watch Shrek 3D. Its my first time watch 3D movie, not that supreme that i though but it also a quite nice experience.

Then on Sunday, i bought my laptop backpack, duno is it i do the wrong decision to buy a big backpack, got a bit regret, but it can put alots of thg other than my lappy, its good for travel, but if say convenience, sure the smaller is look nicer and easy to bring, but now bought dy, ntg to think, have to accept it and maybe the time i went to uni its a good choice? maybe.

Today i will go back to my hometown because to solve some problem, i taken 2 days leave.

This problem also a dark spot in my life, i hope i really will end and at least i no need to worry bout that. Good luck! Wish to myself. =)