I hate myself!!!

Everything i done for u is too much, and the word u r describing me is stupid, i knew that, my care for u just a disturbance, from now i won't care for u since u don't need it, never find u anymore and i will focus on my study, i think it is the thing u want.

I hope as the time pass i really can forget u, and i can tell u, u r the person who hurt me the most!!

Think too much. I shud end it. =)

Let go is the best way.

Rili dunno wat i wan!!

I hope that u can care me more but i told u dun care bout me.

I hope that can go out with u but i dunwan to c u r not happy.

Sometime rili felt that i was so funny.

But 1 thing is real, i care about u, i juz hope that c u happy. =)

I knew that, but y i lying to myself?

All of it jz ur imagination. Wake up!!

Juz have nothing to do at the nite and juz write somethg happened in these few day ba.

As usual eriday went to class, and so stupid i am go and think, whether i choose the wrong course and today my mom ask me the same ques, am i regret to choose this course? and i answered her, am i have the opportunity to regret? no. i wun regret and i wun let myself to regret, once i chose it, den i wun regret, i will work for it, even though nw i rili suffer alot, can say duno erithg, but hope i rili can dun giv up and continue on it. I rili so hope u can support me also.

Juz duno y, i rili no confident to myself, all the thg of me, how to improve my confident? I rili got no idea bout it. Sum time i rili dream that how good if im a handsome guy. haha. funny rite? Even go out with friend i also will felt that, would the ppl will feel shame on me? bcozs im looks ugly.

Ppl say true heart is erithg, but i saw is most ppl onli look at the appearance first before judge at u. I remember last time during my muet speaking, my topic is does ur partner appearance looks good is the criteria to choose ur partner? And i think most ppl will hope that their partner is looking good. I rili dunno y sumtime i stil will dream bout that however i noe that what i dreamed is wun happen, cozs no ppl will wan to go out wit a guy and the surrounding ppls look at her bcozs she holding a ugly boy hand rite? Rili feel myself so funny.

Its ok, to be strong NICK!! I noe u can do it, as i said "Love a person not meaning that u must together with her, but hope that she will get the happiness."

Everything back to normal when holiday finish, i noe i have done something that hurt u, but i promiss never do that ever again.

But from that day, at least i noe sumthing, that is u care for me. I already treat u as a part in my life, not report everything to u but duno y i juz wan to share with u, wan u to noe. Same goes to u, i hope that to noe erithg bout u.

Just let erithg to go as normal, mayb the ending won't be the same, i hope so and i promiss i won't do that to u too.

Just trust me k?

Sorry if i make u sad, i duno wat happen to me these few day i was jz so down.

I promiss i wun let u feel sad again. Trust me k?

I do all the things bcozs i rili care for u so much.