One Step Further

不喜欢的人，可以容易地讲个笑话，随便地发个短信，
甚至，打去电话问对方有什么节目以便随时去参加。

喜欢的，却变成心里的死穴一个，动都不敢动，甚至，看到的时候，话都说不出来。
喜欢某个人，偏偏见到她，一句话没有。
看着旁边的朋友和她谈笑风生，心里又嫉妒又着急。
暗示或者表白心际，一句我爱你，永远不丢人。

如果我想你了
我会掏出手机
看看有没有你的短信

即使我知道
几率是那么的渺茫

如果我想你了
我会在手机上飞速的打下一连串的对你说的话
最后却始终没有按下发送的键
只是不想打扰你

如果我想你了
我会看我们的短信记录
不管是什么样的对话
始终有种甜蜜的感觉
因为在你面前
我好像总是长不大

如果我想你了
我会想
你是不是会想我呢？
哪怕
只有一秒钟的时间...

如果我想你了
我会听你推荐给我的音乐
细品歌词中的字字句句

如果我想你了
我会把思念换作节拍
让它在双手交辉中流露

如果我想你了
我会学着你的语气对自己说话
有的话很假

如果我想你了
我会哭
不会像以前那样给你电话给你短信
只会一个人躲在寝室偷着哭
然后
在你来电话的时候
假装放了静音 不接
之后平淡的发个短信回去
问你有事么

如果我想你了
其实没有如果
每天都很想你
电脑桌面是你
手机主题是你
Mp3相册是你
一切的一切都是你

我不打电话给你并不是我不关心你、只是不知说什么好、又怕你说烦 、打电话给你的不一定就一定很关心你··

Told myself don't care anymore but why I can't put it down? You still the one that affect my emotion.

I know you don't want to see me anymore, no need to lie to me that you are so busy, just tell me you don't want to go out with me, I still can accept it. So funny is in your heart me is so so not important, ask you to go out, you say see you free anot, actually is you waiting to go out with your other friends, if your friends didn't ask you go out only you will find me. It's damn hurt, even your movie is more important than me.

Fine then, I will get lost.

I hate you but I love you.

Now only i realize i'm not important for you, just my misunderstand that and thought that i was so important, funny.

It's the time i should leave, slowly.... slowly....

and you will forget my existance in your life.

Hope you can find the man and get your happiness, god bless you. =)

Bye..

Quite frustrated with it, i realize that i was always the last choice for u. Everytime i was asking u to hang out with me, u will always answer me that "See how la.", however sometime i was booking the time 1month early, u also will told me that, sorry have to go out with friends. You will always leave the last slot to me, if u were no one asking u to go out or u was too bored. Maybe i know the answer, u was not willing to hang out with me and u r not interested to see me also, but i just keep lying to myself and say maybe u are not free.

Because I'm the last slot for u, u will miss for everyone but not me, so u are not interested to meet with me also. Just let it be, maybe i have to learn to accept the reality. Since the reality is like that, i will adapt with it and i think i won't appear anymore, cozs it's no meaning anymore, let me disappear.

I would say thanks to you, because you are the one who always supporting me. When i'm down, you are the one who talk with me, encourage me. You are the best girl that i met, just want to say sorry that i fall in love with you.

I appreciate our friendship, maybe sometime i said some words that might hurt u, but i really not to mean it, i knew that sometimes i was expected too much from you, is my fault.

Just want to say thanks again, the route that i passed, you are always there for me. For me, you the only one and the last girl in my life, and i won't request anything from you, just treat me as your friend then enough, is my fate to meet you, and is my fate to care for you.

If there's no more the day after tomorrow, i will never regret, cause i have a very good friend, the best ever girl in my life. I wish you happy always and all the best =)

Just a normal day for me, went to Ampang Korean Village having a korean BBQ dinner, not fantastic but juz have a harmony dinner. Next time will go for another restaurant cozs there got alot of korean restaurant at there, maybe nid to take a long time to test all the food at there.

As expected it won't happen also, so not too disappointed also, know that u won't feel anything also. Juz let it be. Cozs i'm nothing, now i realise 1thg, scorpio is so lonely.

Grow up de, act like a adult please =)

My heart was so pain, now only i noe that say is easy than practicing it. I really cant put it down..

Actually was so sad, just know that i was nothing for u, u will miss all of ur friend, but not me. U was mentioned to me, u was so happy that this sem break u can meet them and see them cozs u miss them alot. U will so happy outing with them, and without me, u will happier, my existance is a fault. Promissed myself, won't let u c me anymore, maybe good for u also. Slowly, slowly, i will disappear in ur life, but u r always in my heart. When i miss u, i will c ur photo in facebook, that what u always tell me. When i see u r happy with the others, is enuf for me, juz hope that u r happy.

2morrow my birthday, actually so hope that at least u will care for it, but i'm wrong, u will care for every friend and so excited to celebrate for the others but not mine. Just feel myself was funny, thought i was important for u, actually i'm nothing for u, maybe a new friend of u, u will will concern them more. Just was a dream hope that, at least my birthday was celebrating with u, but it just a dream, and the dream will never come true. I hate my birthday, it was so sucks!!