I can't!! I rili can't!!

Plz forgive me.

The word kept in my heart for a year finally i told her. Actually i expected that answer but i still will feel sad?

I hate the word "sorry"!! Don't ever let me hear 1more time!!

Sometime i prefer live in the world that is virtual, at least i could have what i want, and i was so sad that u told me a little bit or very little bit also dun have that kind of feeling, its killing me.

Yes, today is a special day, 1000years onli one time. 101010 and it is rili special day for me!! I hate it!! And i tell myself, i'm a lone ranger, from now i won't care other ppl's stuff anymore!!

I'm a deadman now, no feeling, no pain..

I hate myself!!!

Everything i done for u is too much, and the word u r describing me is stupid, i knew that, my care for u just a disturbance, from now i won't care for u since u don't need it, never find u anymore and i will focus on my study, i think it is the thing u want.

I hope as the time pass i really can forget u, and i can tell u, u r the person who hurt me the most!!

Think too much. I shud end it. =)

Let go is the best way.

Rili dunno wat i wan!!

I hope that u can care me more but i told u dun care bout me.

I hope that can go out with u but i dunwan to c u r not happy.

Sometime rili felt that i was so funny.

But 1 thing is real, i care about u, i juz hope that c u happy. =)

I knew that, but y i lying to myself?

All of it jz ur imagination. Wake up!!

Juz have nothing to do at the nite and juz write somethg happened in these few day ba.

As usual eriday went to class, and so stupid i am go and think, whether i choose the wrong course and today my mom ask me the same ques, am i regret to choose this course? and i answered her, am i have the opportunity to regret? no. i wun regret and i wun let myself to regret, once i chose it, den i wun regret, i will work for it, even though nw i rili suffer alot, can say duno erithg, but hope i rili can dun giv up and continue on it. I rili so hope u can support me also.

Juz duno y, i rili no confident to myself, all the thg of me, how to improve my confident? I rili got no idea bout it. Sum time i rili dream that how good if im a handsome guy. haha. funny rite? Even go out with friend i also will felt that, would the ppl will feel shame on me? bcozs im looks ugly.

Ppl say true heart is erithg, but i saw is most ppl onli look at the appearance first before judge at u. I remember last time during my muet speaking, my topic is does ur partner appearance looks good is the criteria to choose ur partner? And i think most ppl will hope that their partner is looking good. I rili dunno y sumtime i stil will dream bout that however i noe that what i dreamed is wun happen, cozs no ppl will wan to go out wit a guy and the surrounding ppls look at her bcozs she holding a ugly boy hand rite? Rili feel myself so funny.

Its ok, to be strong NICK!! I noe u can do it, as i said "Love a person not meaning that u must together with her, but hope that she will get the happiness."