One Step Further

Its happen again, forget it nick! I know u can do it!

I know i misunderstand what u wan, i feel so sorry, no next time i promise k?

I hope its a new beginning.

So fast i worked for 2month dy, think back the first day i don't know anything but now i can independent do my job. Learned so much, learn to communicate with people, more independent and now only i know that networking is so much important. I don't know i should work until when but now i enjoy my job, cause my colleague was treated me so good, make me don't want to leave.

This picture was taken when i walking back from Lrt station to my house, it make me feel that this world still got a lot wonderful thing.

As i grow older, i will think back all the old incident in my life, start to think that am i done the wrong thing in the past.

Think back the time i just came to kl, everything at here was so strange to me, cause i don't know any place at here, then i study in a school that no one that i know, the first few day at there was so so lonely at there, cause no one will talk to me, i remember the third day of my schooling, there was a guy finally talk with me, and now we are good friend, and he was helping me so much in my life at here, i was so glad i have a friend that so care for me.

During the two year study at there, a girl was changed my life, she make me know what the meaning of study, i really want to thanks her, but i never say it out. During that two years, we are having so much of fun time together, having tuition together, study together. We are argue cause of thing but at the last we will still are friend, thanks for your understanding. Maybe many people will ask me why i can improve so much in 1year, i will answer them because of you, but it maybe too late now, but at least i tried my best. Now we are not get the excellent result but at least enough to fulfill our dream, i will always remember u, or maybe some day there was a miracle will happen, who know. I just hope u can get your happiness, god bless u!!

Eri time cut hair also like that, didn't ask me den straight away help me cut short. Really gonna burst!!

Wondering where can i find a shop that make me satisfy.. Aiz.. =(

Now nothing can do de, just have to wait my hair long again. Sienzzzz..

Don't know why i was so easy feel down, i just feel lonely, from the moment i born, i'm that type of hardly to trust someone else, and it also some incident prove me that human are not trusty. I know many friend, cause i changed 3 school, know a lot of people also, but many of them make me frustrated, said is the best friend but most of the time the one who betray you is your best friend. I got once betrayed by my best friend, is the love matter, but i just angry that why you can't tell me the truth but have to lie to me? I can accept it if u straight tell me, maybe some of the time i'm quite stubborn, but i know that love cant be forced. Best friend should share erithing in the heart rite?

I don't know why i felt that the people around me is dislike my presence, and i know sometime i'm the one irritating, so most of the time i prefer to keep silent, so that won't make the environment like so cool, its the best solution rite? Maybe like this i will lose many friend but i prefer that, the real friend will understand me.

And when u know a people more and more, u will start to know their 'real' attitude, what i mean is some of the people is look so kind at outside but the heart is 'black', when the time they need you will treat you so nicely, but when the time they don't need you anymore, they will turn into other people, for example when u try to ask her some question, then they will answer "for what you want to know? you don't have to know that rite?" Another type is that people in the heart is so so much dislike you, but they will so fake that still can smiling at you, I hate that type the most!! If don't like then straight talk la, i don't need the friend like this, maybe they will think that you don't know bout it, but the truth is I can see through your eye.

Me is me! Take it or leave it, it's my style!

Sometime i really wondering what i want actually, i so easy change my mind, i remember last time when i was lower 6, i enter physic class cause my ambitious that time is become a great engineer, maybe that time not mature enough, think that the world is so easy, dreamed to create something is great enough to let the whole world recognize me, but as time pass, i know that it is a impossible mission.

When the time i was upper 6, that time maybe i want to prove to someone then i try so hard to improve my result, and maybe hear many from my sis that become a actuary is a great thing, but becoming a actuary need brilliant and great result, den i plan go for statistic. Statistician can take external paper for actuary, that my dream ( become an actuary ).

I was applied for statistic, hope that this time i won't change my mind again, and i blessed that i could enter that course and go for my dream! I want to be success, I know my life was a failure but at least i want to prove that im not a useless people.