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可能我就是不懂得表达的人吧，很多人都说没看过我笑，也许吧，我就是比较严肃，我也不喜欢表达我自己。这两个月真的发生了很多事，可能我真的太冲懂想去爱你，跟本没理过你的感受。

说真的我真的很木，就连说笑话也没人会笑那种，更加不用说什么浪漫。

好想去改变我自己。新的一年就到了，我答应你，我会给你时间，就顺其自然吧，我也会去改，改掉我的坏脾气，想让你感到全新的我。=）

说到愿望，一样吧，这几年都是一样的愿望，最大的心愿就是和我心爱的你一起。还有大家开开心心，健康就好。

最后还是要和你说对不起，我真的过份了，原谅我。

Love is hard, especially love the one that not love you.

The day before i go back to study.

Today was a nice day, in the morning i went to PWTC for the 1Malaysia Food Fair, but it was nothing to see, because of my mother want to go there so have to follow. After that take LRT and monorail again to go Pavilion to meet up my friend, since there is a gathering, but i just can join them for a while cause have to have a nice lunch with my family. Just sit at there for an hour and i was ordered a 'Strawberry Lemonade', just sit at there and listen to them chit chat. So sad is my brother haven turn up and I have to leave earlier to meet my family.

Then I go back to Lot 10, meet up my family, have a lunch at Shabu One which located at Lot 10. This place was a great place, the food is fresh and many variety also. Maybe the time that we go not a peak hour for dining, so it's looks like we booked whole restaurant XD. I ate alot, lucky I still can move.

The next day I have to move to study again, I will miss u all, my friend, and YOU also, I miss u alot. Don't worry bout me, I will study hard, believe me. =) Hope the next break can meet up with u all again.

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不知道你发觉吗？我们比以前好多了，不再为一点小事而吵了。也许有一件事你没发觉的，我们越来越像了，我说的是性格。我已经慢慢习惯了，慢慢的知道你心里想什么。

只知道自己对你的爱只有加没有减，但放心吧，我说过我不会乱想，只是想守护着你一辈子。你说过，我们是不一样的人，或许我们这一辈子都不会在一起，我愿意等，就算是下辈子，我都会等你，等你接受我的那一天。你也说过你不是我想像的那么好，可是我的心目中的你是最完美的，你是最美的。

可能所有的一切都是注定的吧，两个从不一样的家乡，来到这里，从性格不一样的我们，话都没几句的我们，现在变成了朋友。我从来没有生气你推开我，因为是我不够好。如果真的有下辈子，我一定会给你幸福的。

真的希望你幸福，就算是有一天，你对我说你喜欢了一个男生，可能我会很伤心，但是我会祝福你的，你是我的一切，你开心我就开心了。

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Last time always got a friend who plan everything fine for us for the event, plan for us all the trip, but because of one time trip, she feel so disappointed because we all rejected her offer. Now i understand her feeling because when you planned all the things nicely but at last all the people just reject it. It's damn frustrated and the feeling is not nice.

So at the end, we also cancelled, i know that will happen also, because not the first time, just use to it. Next time won't waste my time on it, because i know it's not worth. 2nd sem coming, work harder ba. =)

Finally

Yeah, my account was banned. It prove one thing, this world got no free lunch. =)

Now i should focus more on my paper, Gambate!!

Its Blue

Just got my result, at first when i see my result i was quite happy d, but when heard the others result, i was feel so sad. Maybe i shud not expect too high from myself, cozs i'm not a brilliant guy, i juz a ordinary guy. It's the time to serious and work harder on my study. =)

I was missing you right now, but i noe u was busy, waiting for u to finish all your stuff. But i will never say it out, i was so scare the feeling that you leave me far far away, i hate that. Don't worry, i will only be there and protect you. You are my brightest star in my heart.

To be strong

13 days more to semester 2, resting too long at home and done nothing, the initial plan was failed. In this holiday i realize a lots of things, learn to be strong in my life, wake myself up from a sweet sweet dream.

Don't know why suddenly have a plan, to live alone forever, plan to buy a big house and have a pet with me - doggy. Just know that something that dreamed for a long just my imagination, no one will love me, so better end up with it and start my single life, learn to love myself more.

1 more thing that i worry is my result, gonna out on 10 Dec, i know my result won't be good cozs do it terribly. Next semester i will work harder, study for myself but not the others. =)

Live with no regrets.

越喜欢你，越没话跟你说·· via Facebook

不喜欢的人，可以容易地讲个笑话，随便地发个短信，
甚至，打去电话问对方有什么节目以便随时去参加。

喜欢的，却变成心里的死穴一个，动都不敢动，甚至，看到的时候，话都说不出来。
喜欢某个人，偏偏见到她，一句话没有。
看着旁边的朋友和她谈笑风生，心里又嫉妒又着急。
暗示或者表白心际，一句我爱你，永远不丢人。

如果我想你了
我会掏出手机
看看有没有你的短信

即使我知道
几率是那么的渺茫

如果我想你了
我会在手机上飞速的打下一连串的对你说的话
最后却始终没有按下发送的键
只是不想打扰你

如果我想你了
我会看我们的短信记录
不管是什么样的对话
始终有种甜蜜的感觉
因为在你面前
我好像总是长不大

如果我想你了
我会想
你是不是会想我呢？
哪怕
只有一秒钟的时间...

如果我想你了
我会听你推荐给我的音乐
细品歌词中的字字句句

如果我想你了
我会把思念换作节拍
让它在双手交辉中流露

如果我想你了
我会学着你的语气对自己说话
有的话很假

如果我想你了
我会哭
不会像以前那样给你电话给你短信
只会一个人躲在寝室偷着哭
然后
在你来电话的时候
假装放了静音 不接
之后平淡的发个短信回去
问你有事么

如果我想你了
其实没有如果
每天都很想你
电脑桌面是你
手机主题是你
Mp3相册是你
一切的一切都是你

我不打电话给你并不是我不关心你、只是不知说什么好、又怕你说烦 、打电话给你的不一定就一定很关心你··

Crap.

Told myself don't care anymore but why I can't put it down? You still the one that affect my emotion.

I know you don't want to see me anymore, no need to lie to me that you are so busy, just tell me you don't want to go out with me, I still can accept it. So funny is in your heart me is so so not important, ask you to go out, you say see you free anot, actually is you waiting to go out with your other friends, if your friends didn't ask you go out only you will find me. It's damn hurt, even your movie is more important than me.

Fine then, I will get lost.

I hate you but I love you.