Everything back to normal when holiday finish, i noe i have done something that hurt u, but i promiss never do that ever again.

But from that day, at least i noe sumthing, that is u care for me. I already treat u as a part in my life, not report everything to u but duno y i juz wan to share with u, wan u to noe. Same goes to u, i hope that to noe erithg bout u.

Just let erithg to go as normal, mayb the ending won't be the same, i hope so and i promiss i won't do that to u too.

Just trust me k?

Sorry if i make u sad, i duno wat happen to me these few day i was jz so down.

I promiss i wun let u feel sad again. Trust me k?

I do all the things bcozs i rili care for u so much.

Heart broken.

If u think is good for u den keep going on.

I will do as ur wish. Hope u will happy with it.

My 1st sem break

This holiday actually nothing special happen also, but have went alot of place, especial the day that go out with u.  Watched the Pirhana, it was a great movie, saw u r so scare at there, duno y i smile, nt bcozs of laughing at u, bt jz a feeling that can't be explain using word. But c from ur face, although u said u wun feel bored, but from ur face i noe that its nt a type of enjoying. Wun call u outing wit me d, jz dun1 to c u nt happy.

Then, on wed, the birthday celebration is so successfully, at first i though nt many ppl r coming, bt at last many was came, noe both of u happy of it, den i also feel happy too. Thx to u all, without u all it wun b success. =)

On thursday nite, me and my family went to a German restaurant to celebrating for my bro in law birthday, the restaurant is located at Jln Yap Kwan Seng there, it was hiding behind a building, if my sis didnt tell me the way, i sure cant find it. The food at there is looks nice, we ordered pork knuckle, sausage since those food is famous.

Then on saturday, i went to KLCC to meet my friends, but it was nt succeed, i also duno wat happen to me, i waited more than 30min den i went bek d, watever, maybe is my fault to expect eri1 is so punctual.

And last, i have decided to change myself, a totally diff of me, feel sick of others look down on me, i believe that without love i stil can survive, cozs i born to be lone ranger, tis my fate. U r the last in my life, bt u will in my heart, cozs i noe im nt the man that u wan, hope u can get a person that will love u more than i do in the future. =)

The attitude like me, no ppl will like the ppl with tis attitude. Im a lone ranger.

Sometime i rili hope that i got the courage to say that I love u. But i rili dunwan to hear the word 'sorry' again. i noe im nt good enuf for u. Juz can stay at ur side to take care of u, ntg much other than that.

Let go is the best solution, hope i wun regret =)

As usual, express my feeling here cozs it's the onli way to let me express myself, ya i noe, u will always be my listener but if continue like tat if u nt felt that im irritating, but i also felt that myself is so irritating.

Yesterd jz finished my Calculus mid sem exam, the situation is d same as the time that im in f6 that i still remember clearly, the first test of upper 6. That time i was done ntg on the paper and onli with a small part i noe how to do, and the situation almost is the same nw, many of the ques i also duno how to do. Its uni now, i cant get F for my exam, i have to get at least B for all sub so that i can grade within 3years. Sometime i rili felt so stress, my family member is so supporting me and put so much hope on me, and hope that i can be a actuarial, but i think i will make them disapponted. I rili cant unds that y my math is so weak.

Another thing, until nw i also have no courage to love u, i rili dun have the courage to tell u that i love u, i noe that i cant giv u anythg, i cant promiss u anythg. I noe myself is so negativity, but is the experienced make me cant be positive anymore, I loved few gal b4, eritime i got the courage to tell her 'i love u', ya i noe that, the answer is 'sorry.'. Actually thy no nid to tell me sorry cozs i unds myself well, im nt that type of gd guy, i dun have money, nt even handsome, nt even clever, im got no reason to let ppl to love me. My attitude nt even nid to say, is the worst, no patient, always critic ppl and neva critic myself. I rili so hate myself!! I noe many of the ppl so call 'friend' but in actual thy dunlike me also. I rili feel so meaningless, let me continue to be my lone ranger, i love u, i hope that u will get ur happiness, so tis call let go? I duno, but if u nid me. I will always there for u.