One Step Further

The day that i never forget, as usual went to work, on my pc and start photocopy those stuff. Don't know why just feel a bit weird cause that time i was still working, i will hope that time pass faster, but today i feel like wan the time to be slower, 5month at there dy, quite miss my place and seat.

Sharp at 5.15pm, i go meet my supervisor, she ask me to pass all my job to my colleague, after pass all my job, then she ask me go her place, then she call all people gather (my section) and give me the present that they prepared, that time really feel quite touch, i though they will do nothing and let me leave but i'm wrong, they bought me 2 T-shirt. The another 3 contract which is so close to me d, bought me a cake, that time i rili feel like don't want to leave, but i have to, to continue my study.

Thanks u all!! I will forever remember u all and I miss U all!!

This is how my weekend spent, saturday went Times Square watch Shrek 3D. Its my first time watch 3D movie, not that supreme that i though but it also a quite nice experience.

Then on Sunday, i bought my laptop backpack, duno is it i do the wrong decision to buy a big backpack, got a bit regret, but it can put alots of thg other than my lappy, its good for travel, but if say convenience, sure the smaller is look nicer and easy to bring, but now bought dy, ntg to think, have to accept it and maybe the time i went to uni its a good choice? maybe.

Today i will go back to my hometown because to solve some problem, i taken 2 days leave.

This problem also a dark spot in my life, i hope i really will end and at least i no need to worry bout that. Good luck! Wish to myself. =)

Time pass so fast, its mid of may now, stil got another 1month then i will noe where i gonna to go.

Think back, what i done in these 5 month? I rili cant give the answer, cozs i felt tat i was wasted 5month, except work i was done ntg. Last week on Mother's Day, i used my 4month salary to buy my laptop (its my purpose of work), tat was what i got for 4month, ntg other than that.

At last i can put it down, it the good thing, cause u r friend to me nw, learned hw to put down d. Love is can't be forced =). I think i'm more suitable to be single.

Happy go lucky!!

Feel so stress these few day, cause i'm the only guy in my section, almost every things also will call me to do first, but i'm not superman!!

'Nick!' Someone calling, and 'Nick!', there calling too. My job not yet finish here then there will calling me, aizs..

I really hope this month can pass faster, not mean that i want to leave my colleague but just tired of it, i will miss u all also =)

These few day rili so down, why the world is so complicated? Why got money, love those things?

Love can be a sweet thing but for me it just make me suffer, that what i experienced, treat a ppl with my heart and i was so stupid think that when u care the people that u love and try to protect her and try help her to solve all the problem, she will feel that, but i'm wrong, this world don't have such simple and pure love. First they will see ur outlook, i definitely not handsome. Second money, i also not rich. Third carrier, I'm don't have any also. I understand that, cause i'm rili nothing.

Beside love, lets talk friends, I don't think i rili have some close friend, even one. I tried b4 treat someone as my best friend and share all my thing with her/he, but actually just i though it is but he/she didn't treat me as friend also, stupid rite? Whats the definition of friend, just for use only? If they didn't need u anymore then no need to bother u? I think it is, really tired of it, maybe from now i will only believe myself, as i know no friend will care for me and can say i have no friend, the real friend.

Live so long in this world but still can count as fail in my life, the one i love not love me at all, the friend that i trust actually not bother me. Let it be, i will be strong to be alone.

Today is second day i'm home alone, really feel lonely, sms to u, u didnt reply me, i didnt call u cozs i scare im the one disturb u, i noe i shud nt continue like this since i noe that im in ur heart jz a friend, forever wont change, and i not the one u looking for, dunno why sometime cant stop myself thinking of u!

Sometime i really hate alone at home, eat alone, watch tv alone. Sometime tired of work but no one i can share with, i dont have many friend, that why my friend call me lone ranger. Not i dunwan to communicate with other but its my natural attitude, i prefer not to talk than i offence the other cozs most of the time when i open my mouth, others like cant hear what i talk and keep talking with others, onli u will patiently listen to me and care for me, i think that the reason make me misunderstand.

Maybe one day or that day wont come, i just waiting, i will never give up.